X files @ bedok

There is no insurance agent to wake me up today, no calls from office to wake me up but an optician woke me up today.. u know who u r la hor.. carry on like this n we will downgrade even furthur from best frens to frens, then to acquaintance la. Finally.. my short 'holiday' of 2 weeks has come to an end.. come monday its back to the squeeze in the mrt and the work... Yes, im depressed now and maybe submerging myself in work is a way of distraction but there are a lot of ways to distract oneself and i feel that using work as a method of distraction is kinda dumb or in this sense 'dun'.

I met up with Shawn, Bryan and his frens to go Arena today to finish our 'stock' there. Had japanese food again but this time.. with sake. First time drinking sake n i proceeded with no caution.. throat burn -.-

Anyway, hit on Arena for the 2nd time but didnt really stayed there long becos of the ambience i guessed.. too loud, cant really chill and chat in normal decibels. We just finished our drinks and 'sua-ed' to Zouk. Its been ages since i last went and yes, the crowd is hippier and more happening but i feel like a dinosaur there. Cant blend in there at all as i stand by one side while the rest of the guys enjoyed themselves at the dance floor. Shawn n Bryan were with me though but its not really a place to chill n chat as its too noisy and we couldnt get a decent table at all. Discos...not my cup of tea liao.

Last stop was 'ec' aka east coast Home ktv... a place where on good nights, u have to wait 2 hours to sing 2 songs(sucker) but its cosy there n the volume is just abt right. Linked up with Kel, Rudolph and Eric there(3 guys i have known for more than 10 years..) Apparently, i wasnt prepared to drink any more as i had more than enuff at Arena. Not sure how much Eric did drank but he seems happy tonight. While its not rare to see him down his drink glass after glass, it can be considered a blessing that he is still sober after all that becos he can be quite 'spectacular' sometimes when he is drunk. Actually boat quay was the last stop for them but i chose to go home wirth Rudolph... old liao.. body canot obey what the head wanted and thats where i came upon a 'x file' sighting.

I took my clothes n towel and stepped into my bathroom to shower. Hey presto... i saw three pieces of shit near the cubicle!!! Not human type but looks like droppings of either a cat or dog.No..its not funny..i was like hey wtf sia.. i dun need that at 3 plus am but now that i tink back...its kinda comical lols. I dun keep any pets and there werent any stray cats that came uninvited into the house, as such i am puzzled why the 3 pieces of shit are there. Im still thinking abt how it landed there as im typing now but no rationale answers come into the toxicated mind of mine and thats when i decided to hit the sheets. For those who are interested abt the plight of the 3 pieces of droppings, fret not, i wasnt that drunk or hungry and it has been suitably dealt with by a water hose.

There is this song from this guy of FIR called 阿沁. It kinda really says what my heart wants to bring across. Yes, im dwelling abt it again but ill be lying if i say that im fine already. Its feelings we are talking abt here, not someting which can be forgotten becos u chose to... as it really did happen. Anyway, been trying to put the song up on blog but stil in the process of learning and so, dun be a pisser and complain abt poor service, at least i provide the lyrics.

其实还爱你

我讨厌阴天的风
冷得那么刺痛
只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞
昨天的风筝在角落
被谁丢到了路口
我很不想让你找到离开的理由
每一夜闭上眼睛
我看到了恶梦
你微笑但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝
直接割到我心中
不想装作脆弱
也不想爱得懦弱
其实我非常爱你不想失去你
难道我没有权利说我不愿意
你给了他的吻
虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住你的心
我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心害怕你离去
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你

The lyrics 每一夜闭上眼睛 我看到了恶梦 你微笑但是旁边的人不是我 is really happening to me almost everynight, how apt. Maybe the song writer experiences the same torment im going thru right now when hes writing this song.